Tuesday, November 9, 2010

letting go

flora (who now has kidney failure) has good days and bad days. on the good days she eats a little, gets her meds into her and i'm so happy. on the bad days (we've just been through a couple) she won't eat (which means no medication that's sprinkled on her food) and i'm so down. she still has lots of energy - playful and affectionate and curious. but she's loosing weight and i know that can't continue.
last night i was lying on the bed petting her and i suddenly saw this through her eyes. i have to let go of trying to control it. she's doing it her way. some days she just doesn't want to eat and i have to let that happen. and relish the days when she's feeling good.

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